ok..
i am like so sian diao liao..
cos my mum wants me to go jjc...
my goal was acjc yet she wants me to go the jjc because can save money since its like so much closer...
none of my aunts approve of me going to any other jc besides jjc...

so,
since she has already decided for me that i should go into jjc,
i guess theres nth much for me to do le...

i can say i am angry...
at the fact that i cant even decide wat sch i want to go to...
at the start she wants me to go to poly,
cos she said the sch fees for jc were high,
and its useless..
might as well i get into poly, get a certificate and enter the work force...
so, i made the decision of going to either sp or np...
then, she changed her mind when she rmbed that she had bought an insaurance for me that has got something to do with funding me for uni..
so she demanded me to go into jc and then to uni.
wat a change when i have already decided to go poly..
so, i made up my mind to work hard to get into a good jc so that my chances of getting into uni is higher...
so just when i decided to work hard, and have already started to work hard,
she just wants me to go to jjc..
she doesnt care bout my grades as long as i get into a jc...
so, l1r5 = 9 u get into jc,
l1r5 = 14 also into jc..
so might as well i just get a 14 and get my arse in jjc will do...

since i onli need to get a 14,
my expectations for myself are of cos changed...
i guess in a good way,
i don have to force myself to get a grade that is hard for me to achieve..
last tym,
my expectations was:
eng - b3
humanities - b3
chi - a1
e.maths - a1
sci - a1
a.maths/sci - a1

but now, i can lower my expectations le..
eng - b4
humanities - b4
chi - a1
e.maths - a1
sci - a2
a.maths/sci - a2

guess it really makes a big diff...